Intro — why this story, why now

Hey friend — welcome back to Confidence and Cappuccino. I’m Nefe, and this is Episode 38: The Confidence in Starting Over.

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If your life is nudging you into a brand-new chapter and your first thought is, “wait… do I actually get to have this?” — you’re in the right place. Today I’m sharing the story of our flat move as a living, breathing example of new beginnings. Not because bricks and paint are the point, but because this season is happening in real time for me, and I think the principles translate to whatever “new” you’re holding — a job, study, health, parenting, recovery, creativity, moving countries, love after heartbreak, all of it.

Quick gentle catch-up on the arc we’ve been on together:
In Ep 35, we sat with grief for the life we imagined. In Ep 36, we cracked the myth of having it all together and chose real over polished. In Ep 37, we updated our background stories — those subconscious scripts that quietly steer us.
So of course the next step is a beginning. [beat] A new page. A first key. A second bedroom with a couple of boxes and an echo.

Here’s how today will flow so you can relax into it: five little chapters — each a story + a takeaway you can apply to your version of starting over — and then a warm summing-up with a tiny next step. Sound good?
 [sip] Let’s go.

Part 1 — Tuesday night keys: the friction-free first step

It’s a Tuesday night. I get back to our rental flat after work — brain mashed, shoes off halfway. And Ian, being peak Ian, has already done the most helpful thing: he’s picked up the keys and he’s loaded the boxes into the car so we can literally just head out. No speech. No ceremony. Just, “Let’s go have a look.”

We drive through that soft London streetlight glow. We open the door to the new place and it is that particular kind of quiet that only empty rooms at night can manage — a little eerie, a lot holy. We carry the boxes straight to the second bedroom and set them down. The thunk echoes. It feels like the flat says, “Noted.”

We do a whisper-tour — bedroom, living room, kitchen — like we haven’t stared at the floor plan for weeks. But seeing it at night, it’s different. Less shiny. More honest. Joy sits down first. Relief joins it. Fear peeks from the hallway like, “hey besties.” All welcome.
We don’t have mugs yet, so we sit on the floor and just… breathe. That ten-minute pause is our first piece of decor. Not cushions — presence.

And then the sweetest detail: on the kitchen counter the previous residents have left printed instructions — how to charm the boiler (angels), and a note about the two wardrobes in the bedrooms — this hinge is quirky, that shelf is sturdy. The unknowns suddenly feel friendlier. Like the flat has come with a welcome guide and a wink.

How this applies to your beginning:
 If your “new” is a first day at work, a return to the gym, opening a blank document, or going to a meeting for sobriety — do the Ian thing. Lower friction on step one. Lay out the clothes. Pin the Zoom links. Put your trainers by the door. Title the document. Schedule the ride. When courage doesn’t have to trip over logistics, it walks in faster.

Tiny practice: before you start, say out loud: “I’m just going to make this easy.” Then do one prep action that takes under five minutes.

[beat] Okay. Boxes are down. Breath is taken. What happened next surprised me.

Part 2 — The two-week window: pacing as self-hospitality

We didn’t move in that night. We actually owned the flat for two weeks before sleeping there. On purpose.

Saturday one was paint day — sleeves up, playlist on, a dignified truce with the skirting boards. We learned the light: how the living room glows rudely bright at 9am and the bedroom softens like a sigh at dusk.

Saturday two was move day — more boxes than sense, the kettle promoted to senior management, me making wildly confident decisions about where teaspoons live.

That two-week gap wasn’t hesitation; it was nervous-system hospitality. Newness is loud. Pacing it didn’t make us slow; it made us steady. We let our bodies gather evidence: this place is safe, this routine is learnable, this change is ours.

How this applies to your beginning:

• New job: don’t try to be a culture expert on day one. Spend week one learning names, maps, acronyms. Aim for one small improvement by Friday.
• Health reset: start with ten minutes and consistency. Let your joints and calendar trust you again before you ask for more.
• Study: do a 20-minute “setup session” — organise files, skim the syllabus, make a list of exam dates — before diving into content.
• Business/creative: build one “first corner” in your workflow — a template, a kit, a checklist you can open half asleep.
• Parenting/new routine: establish a morning anchor and a bedtime anchor; everything in the middle can be flexible.
• Recovery/sobriety: stack the early days with repetition — same meeting time, same route, same call. Rhythm is scaffolding.

Tiny practice: each time you cross a threshold — front door, desk, gym, meeting room — do the Arrive Breath: inhale 4, hold 2, exhale 6, five rounds. Teach your body, “We’re safe here.”

[smile] Slow is not stuck. Slow is smooth, and smooth becomes fast.

Part 3 — Retiring the myth: starting over isn’t failure; it’s an update

There’s a stealthy little myth that says, “If you’re starting over, you must’ve messed up.”
Let’s retire that with love. Beginnings aren’t punishments; they’re permissions. You didn’t fail “Old You 1.0.” You updated to “You — with better data.”

Our first night looked like this: bedside tables were boxes labelled random; I used a hoodie as a curtain; at 1am the radiator cleared its throat like a polite ghost. I did not feel polished. But I did feel capable. Not certain — capable. And that is such a better feeling.

How this applies to your beginning:

• Career pivot or layoff: your context changed. Your skills evolved. Updating course isn’t failure; it’s responsiveness.
• Breakup/divorce: your boundaries upgraded. Starting again is not regression; it’s recalibration.
• Chronic illness/healing: swapping protocols is not quitting; it’s listening to your body’s intel.
• Moving country/language learning: mistakes aren’t shame; they’re reps.

Pocket mantra: “I don’t need certainty; I need the next honest step.”
And when the brain whispers, “Who do you think you are?” try: “Someone who learns quickly.” I say that sentence out loud. It changes the room.

Confidence truth: it doesn’t arrive before action. Confidence prints after — like receipts — every time you keep a promise to yourself. Call the contractor. Send the CV. Walk five minutes. Open the book. That’s one more receipt.

Part 4 — Anchors that hold: body, space, money, people, words

Beginnings wobble us. Anchors steady us. These five held me; pick two and do them daily for 7–14 days.

Body — The Arrive Breath.
 We’ve met her. Use her at thresholds. Before you hit “Join meeting.” Before you put the kettle on. Before you open the studio door.

Space — Corners & Zones.
 We made a tea station: two mugs, a jar of tea, a spoon, a ridiculously confident plant. One finished square metre softened the other sixty.
 Translate it: a clean square of desk, a diaper caddy, a “study tray,” a gym bag that lives packed.

Money — Proof of stewardship.
I set autopay for one boring bill and said out loud, “I meet my responsibilities.” It seems tiny. It told my nervous system, “We’re okay.”
 Translate it: separate account for tax, automatic savings sweep, one invoice template ready to send.

People — One text, one neighbour.
 A neighbour knocked with the bin schedule and said, “Shout if you need a drill.” Three minutes of kindness anchored me more than any quote.
 Translate it: message a teammate for a 15-minute coffee. Add two “text before craving” numbers. Text a friend, “New season, still me. How are you?”

Words — Rename the hard thing.
 “I have to work out” → “I’m practising energy.”
 “I’m behind” → “I’m becoming.”
 “I’m bad at this” → “I’m early at this.”
 Language is scaffolding. Make it sturdy and kind.

[beat] You can feel how this is less about willpower and more about design, right? Good. Let’s walk into the messy middle together.

Part 5 — The messy middle: quiet wins & letting good things land

Flat-pack furniture is not DIY; it is a relationship workshop.
 Me: “Pass Part C.”
 Also me, five minutes later: “Part C was under the instructions.” Obviously.

We cooked the first dinner — slightly burnt onions, aggressively proud. We used boxes as bedside tables. And in between the chaos, I kept noticing these quiet wins that don’t make a reel but make a life.

Quiet wins sound like:
 “I sent the boring email.”
 “I read the boiler instructions without crying.”
 “I asked one clarifying question at work.”
 “I went for a ten-minute walk.”
 “I brought a water bottle.”
 “I showed up to the meeting and said my name clearly.”

Each one is a receipt. Each one teaches your nervous system, “We can handle this.”

Nightly practice — Three Bricks (60 seconds):
Write down three small things you did today that future-you can stand on. Not castles — bricks.
 If you’re parenting, “I protected nap time.”
 Studying, “I did one Pomodoro.”
 Recovery, “I texted before the urge got loud.”
 Creative, “I wrote 200 messy words.”

And this one changed me: when someone says “Congratulations,” I answer, “Thank you — I’m letting it land.” Then I pause long enough to actually feel it. At first it was awkward. Then it was healing. That’s joy-tolerance training — expanding your capacity to receive good without batting it away with a joke.

[soft laugh] Okay. Deep breath. Let’s tie a gentle bow.

Summing Up — your next honest step (and a warm send-off)

Starting over rarely looks cinematic. It looks like Ian pre-loading the car so the first step is easy. It looks like dropping boxes in a second bedroom on a Tuesday night. It looks like owning the place for two weeks, painting one Saturday, moving the next, and finding boiler + wardrobe instructions from kind strangers who left breadcrumbs.

Here are your takeaways, distilled:
1) Lower the friction on step one. Make it boring and ready.
2) Pace yourself like hospitality. Slow is smooth; smooth becomes fast.
3) Retire the shame myth. This isn’t failure; it’s an update. You are someone who learns quickly.
4) Choose two anchors and repeat them. Breath plus one of space/money/people/words.
5) Count the quiet wins. Do Three Bricks nightly, and practise letting good things land.

If you’re standing at the doorway of a beginning — a role, a routine, a degree, a city, a decision — you don’t need certainty. You need the next honest step. [pause] You are allowed to begin gently. You are allowed to become at a human pace.

If this held your hand today, share it with a friend who’s quietly starting over too.
DM me your three bricks for tonight — I’d love to cheer you on.
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I’m Nefe. Be gentle. Begin again.

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